I'm really not quite sure what this blog will consist of; if I'm going to use it to actually write about my insanely complicated life or if I'll just post lyrics and stuff. why not both? For this entry, I"ll try it I suppose.
Life is difficult lately. That's pretty much the only way to explain it. I'm really not making the best decisions for myself. I'm not going to elaborate. But I just don't know what to do with myself really. I'm just trying to find myself again. Not sure how to do that. I'm still working on figuring myself out. Noooo idea how to even try that.
Lately a million boys are trying to date me. I wish they would stop. I feel bad. But. I dont even want to date right now. I cant take care of myself, how am I supposed to care for another person? I have noooo idea. Poor boys. I'm sorry. I really do feel bad. Blah. I dont know. See? I have such a hard time talking. How the hell am I supposed to write in this thing. AAAHHHH. I just dont heal very well. Therefore: no where near ready for boyz. See song lyrics at end of blog.
Random thoughts:
I SEE MY FUCKING BEST FRIENDS TOMORROW!!!!!!!!
my tattoo is rather itchy
my phone just vibrated
yep still itchy
i really need to start working out
i wanna be nice again
i need to stop spending al my money on clothes
one month til christmas
my upper left wisdom tooth is bugging me
i hate having tonsilitis
hate my liiiiiiiiiiiiiife
oh; and this song is absolultey perfect.
He is sensible and so incredible
and all my single friends are jealous.
He says everything I need to hear
and its like I couldn’t ask for anything better.
He opens up my door and
I get into his car and he says
you look beautiful tonight.
And I feel perfectly fine.
[Chorus:]
But I miss screamin’ and fightin’ and kissin’ in the rain
and it’s 2am and I’m cursin’ your name.
You’re so in love that you act insane
and that’s the way I loved you.
And breakin’ out and comin’ undone
it’s a roller coaster kinda rush.
And I never knew I could feel that much.
And that’s the way I loved you.
He respects my space
and never makes me wait
and he calls exactly when he says he will.
He’s close to my mother
and talks business with my father.
He’s charming and endearing
and I’m comfortable.
But I miss screamin’ and fightin’ and kissin’ in the rain
and it’s 2am and I’m cursin’ your name.
You’re so in love that you act insane
and that’s the way I loved you.
And breakin’ out and comin’ undone
it’s a roller coaster kinda rush.
And I never knew I could feel that much.
And that’s the way I loved you.
He can’t see the smile I’m fakin’.
And my hearts not breakin’.
Cause I’m not feelin’ anything at all.
And you were wild and crazy.
Just so frustrating, intoxicating, complicated,
got away like some mistake.
And I,
I miss screamin’, and fightin’, and kissin’ in the rain
it’s 2am and I’m cursin’ your name.
I’m so in love that I acted insane.
And that’s the way I loved you.
Breakin’ out and comin’ undone
it’s a roller coaster kinda rush.
And I never knew I could feel that much.
And that’s the way I loved you.
And that’s the way I loved you.
Never knew I could feel that much.
And that’s the way I loved you.
