Taylor Swift knows me better than I know myself.

Please take down the misletoe
Cause I don't wanna think about that right now
Cause everything I want is miles away
In a snow covered little town
My momma's in the kitchen, worrying about me
Season's greetings, hope you're well
Well I'm doing alright
If you were wondering
Lately I can never tell

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time
But there were Christmases when you were mine

I've been doing fine without you, really
Up until the nights got cold
And everybody's here, except you, baby
Seems like everyone's got someone to hold

But for me it's just a lonely time
Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

Merry Christmas everybody
That'll have to be something I just say this year
I'll bet you got your mom another sweater
And were your cousins late again
When you were putting up the lights this year
Did you notice one less pair of hands

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time
But there were Christmases when I didn't wonder how you are tonight
Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

You were mine






yeah. i dropped ralph off at work this morning then this song came on on the radio and i cried that whole way home. i hate how i can still miss joey. its not fair. we dont even talk anymore. i feel like i cry a lot lately because i've stopped taking my anti depressants. that probably wasn't a good idea. but i have no more medical insurance because i dont feel like failing another semester of school. things are hard.


i've been missing niamh a lot these past few days. it just breaks my heart that she's not here for christmas. for anything anymore. life isn't fair. neither is death. rest in peace beautiful. i think about you everyday.

what the fuck i just started crying again. make it stopppppppp.




ps. ralph is cute. i like him. we're going to the snow today if michelle ever decides to wake up and join the world today hahaha.

pps. i just cleaned my room for the first time today in like 6 months. i have a floor !!!!! i got paid 100 to do it. suhweet.